The Gathering

I believe i owe many these... You may click on them and grab them if you want to... I hope everyone enjoyed themselves... and to those who weren't there.. don't worry, Chinese New Year is just around the corner... make sure you look for the right organiser.. :P

Time & Love

As I enter this, i'm really grateful to the Lord God of host for His Grace & Mercy. My trip to Japan is about to begin. With my arrival back in KL, a pit stop where I am to settle certain petty stuff then move on my journey.

My departure from Miri let me know how much the blessing the Lord has blessed me. Looking at my love ones.

As to mention, on top of the list, my family, Whom my wonderful parents I credit to. Their Love is something I come to understand what 'unmeasurable' mean. The greatest blessing I am blessed with!

Then, my fellow comrades. I am truly glad to have been thru my youthful years with these group of beautiful friends. Life seemed so colorful! I dare not say these are the most reliable & faithful friend. BUT they are indeed reliable & faithful.

Life's short. Like a box of chocolate, where u open it. The bitterness, the sweetness, combined to form a sense of harmony & bliss. Each taste was as blissful as another. Nonetheless, just a while only till you pop in another one.

A friend of mine once resound my mind that 'TIME' is our enemy, our friend. It was in the car when, Taiwan pop star, Jay chou's Rainbow (彩虹) brings me the thought that life is indeed short. We really need to wake up! Realize how much we need to appreciate these people before us. While we are still together, still able see each other. We live it to our best that one day, one fine day when we look back the window of yesterday, we have no regrets!

I don't know if you are reading this, but I just want you to know T-H-A-N-K-S for your time & Love! I Love you!

'N'

The day result is being released is a dreadful day for me. Every time I enter the website viewing my result, it’s horrible. I hate the feeling. I hate it. Even as I enter the website, my heart turns cold. It made my heart itch and twitch.

On the eve evening of result being released, I entered our University’s web page. I saw an unread email in the inbox. As I read it, it was the assignment marks for my International business Strategy. This is the first time in history that I’ve ever entered the exam hall without knowing the internal marks. Thank God I passed the internal with more than pass.

Now onto the overall… I entered the exam results webpage. As I glance thru. I noticed and ‘N’ immediately, my heartbeat stopped. (In Monash ‘N’ means fail) I highlighted the ‘N’ and pull it over to see which unit it was. It was International Business strategy. “I would compromise the markings and the exam marks” the voice of the lecturer came ringing to my mind. I was shocked. I was unable to move. With my parents in the room. I didn’t know how to react! Swiftly my mom came over. “So, how was it?”

“Gulp! One down the drain” faintly I answered. Dad was watching TV. He just continue watching while Mom just walk away shaking her head. All I could do was get out of the room silently.

At that moment, I thought to myself, “What a failure you are?” After the hurdle of passing all my units during semester 1. Now, I’m back to square 1. Sigh! Sigh! I feel that I’m living in nightmare that can never be awakened. It’s miserable. Studies seem so easy and yet so hard. It’s dreading.

I thought this year; I’ll be able to go through it safe and sound, seems not. I still have to face the challenge of redeeming my own dignity. In life, once you’ve gotten good results, you are not allowed to drop even once. People place high hopes in you. People anticipate good results from you more.

Humans are amazingly weird. When you are at your peak, or success, what ever you say, sees to be agreeable. However, when you are a failure, whatever you do is wrong, the way you walk is wrong, the way you talk is wrong, whatever you say is wrong even if whatever you say is right. This is how realistic the world is.

Sometimes I wonder. Why is it that study seems so easy for some and so hard for the rest? I have to admit life in Business course is much more relaxing than that of Science and engineering. BUT… We have our hard times. Have I put in my 100%? How do you define 100%? Sitting in front of the book 24/7? Not leaving the rooms for a month until the exam day? Even not going to church?!

I personally do think that all that does not measure up to 100%. Going to church is a time where 3-4 hours a week we specially devote it to God. We are humans! We need to rest! I don’t believe that giving up the 3 -4 Hours to go to church will cost me an ‘N’. Well, when u fail, you juts lose the right to voice. You don’t even have a chance to voice. To think of it, I don’t think I want to even voice.


I’m ashamed of myself. I’m ashamed for my family. I’m ashamed for Christ my Lord. I don’t what I could do now. Only time will lead.

Along the journey, i sometimes do lead myself to think... Is it because sometimes, God disappears in my life as i enter comfort zone. Therefore i need to be fling up and down to be in faith. But yet, God is Good~ I'm just so tired now. So tired i feel i could just sleep through my day~

As i browse through the picture for this particular blog. I came across a picture that depict a man in failure. with a quote that says, perhaps your best isn't good enough. I think thats the best reason to answer myself for now...

Oinky bday

27 November was a date, when a good friend of mine was born. I have to admit.. I have poor memory.. but to certain limit.. I can still remember important dates… very limited… and only certain dates... trust me… through this date as well, we got the opportunity to get around together…

Anyways, Sze’s bday was great… It was a fun night out. A night where, I won’t mind going thru again… The dining, the eating of ice-cream, the chatting, the catch-up and all the laughter and smiles… very fattening... Yes.. But worth it~ Well, this post is dedicated to Sze… Hope you like the photos…

Serinity~

Having ended my papers on Wednesday is indeed a relief of my shoulders. The stress is gone… the only worry now is the ‘Judgement Day’… A.K.A. ‘D-Day’ I so hope it’ll turn out good… ONLY then will i be able to enjoy the remainder of my holidays... Well, there’s nothing much I can do now, Can i?… All that can be done has been done… All that’s left is waiting… This has led me to want to say a simple prayer... which I really like a lot… It helps and it really mean from the bottom of my heart… Just thought perhaps I could share it with you guys…

Dear God,

Please grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
The courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.

In Jesus Name I pray~

Sleep Mode?

Snore… snores… Snore… Mmm…

Finally, I am back on blog after a disastrous month of being a bloodsucker... in terms of just reading others blog rather than producing any work of my own. Hehehe… Actually, the thoughts didn’t stop, the pondering never did stop… It’s just that I didn’t have the time, or the motivation to put it onto the Blog…

I am back on track thanks to a friend who recently posted a comment on one of my blog… It made me realize that someone is actually reading. Hahaha… It then struck me that I owe a duty to my reader… ehem… Proud of it... hahaha… :P

And being the last day of my exam paper… I am now free from exam temporarily… Have to dread about 30^th November, the judgment day for all Monashians… I truly pray that all that I have put in would be sufficient… Well, all I can say is… if I pass, I praise the Lord~ If I fail… I still praise the Lord… For that is what I have labored... It’s my own fruit that I need to harvest.

Having no need to take any summer unit this year, I am thankful to the Lord! For I am going to Japan in Dec for the Youth Exchange Program. I truly hope I am able to pass all the units well and enjoy my trip to Japan. Then, I’ll be able to enjoy my holidays till uni re-open where life starts to get busy again.

So much so for my sleep… look forward to post more posts… hopefully in near future, more about my trips here and there… and thoughts that surround me… Have a great time reading…

Crossroad

A mini-reunion it was the day before. Many little assemblage there was. Amongst I realize, a friendship is similar to a road. It greatly reminds me of the literature – “The Road not taken” by Robert Frost. Assembling life where we each begin our journey of our own from different starting point. With little do we know the journey ahead. Though some traffic lights some time and along the journey, some police traffics placed along the side of the road and some road signs built. Before independent, many are coached. Some, without coaches, begins the journey on their own. Venturing into the unknown, we sometimes tries hard to predict the unknown. All kinds of means are utilized.

I once thought that all ship wear and break no matter what, except Friendship. That’s what people say... I’ve come to realize that it doesn’t break that easily, but it is fragile. It is yet fragile, yet it’s not so easily broken. Not so easily broken and yet it changes. Therefore, I think friendship is an amazing and weird thing. Just when friends are together, you thought this will last forever. You thought you could actually lean against each other. Some goes to the extent of making vows, some to the extent of revealing one’s deepest secret to another. So much for Friendship last forever?

We forgot we grow. We change. We adapt to our environment. As we move on to new environment, we make new friends. This is endorsed when we each separate and go into different fields, different countries, different unis, different colleges and different life. We then begin to doubt, are we still his/her BEST friend? Or IS he or she still my BEST friends. What about our current friend? What about our new friend(s)?

Many tell me that they are still very good with their past and current friend. Thats your thinking. What about them? I seemed to doubt that Best friends last forever. I think friends do. But not BEST friend(s). I may be wrong. I was told too that as long as we are pretty much alive, we expect the unexpected.

But at least what I’ve experienced is that, as we live a separate life, we are not so close anymore. We each have new commitments. We each pretty much don’t know what is going on in each other’s life. We each grow at different rate in different environment. How can u say that he/she is your best friend, when you don’t know each other’s life and you don’t go through what each other experiences?

Therefore I personally imagine friendship to be like a journey of life. We each walk at a different pace, different style, different speed, and different tempo. At certain stage of life, we meet up at some junctions, say like you meet some at Kindergarten, then some more junctions at the following crossroad, where u meet in high school, and then some more junctions at the following crossroads where u meet at work place. Perhaps more junctions where you each meet... OR even not meeting at any junctions anymore till the day you are called back to where you come from.

In scribbling off, I do personally apprise you to appreciate the friends you have around you now. They aren’t gonna be with you all the time as always suggested. Appreciate it well…